WHMP: 27 July 2017

Day 3 completed as an inpatient and I still am none the wiser about what is going on!

The chronic pain episodes have substantially decreased with the frequency they are happening and when they do happen they aren’t as long or as intense. They are still crazy painful but I can silently endure the pain breathing through it rather than screaming the house down.

I am still however having the constant throbbing pain in my chest that is only under control with the aid of pain killers. I still have blood in my urine and my heart rate is also very low and way lower than normal.

Today I had a MRCP scan completed this afternoon. This is a type of MRI to look at what’s going on with my abdominal organs. I believe they are looking for stones to be the culprit. I didn’t get back until nearly 4pm so now it’s too late for me to get the results back today so I have to continue nil by mouth until ward rounds tomorrow morning.

I’m glad my mum is here now, sometimes even as an adult you just need a cuddle from your mum!

How am I coping? In all honesty I am not coping at all well. I am an emotional wreck and constantly on the brink of tears, I’m sick of not knowing what’s going on in my body, I just want an action plan or treatment plan to fix whatever is going on so that I can get better and get back on track. I am tired, I’m sore, I’m cranky, I’m thirsty and I’m missing my boys so very badly.

I guess I can reflect on two NSV’s today! The first being that I actually now fit into a standard issue hospital gown and it actually does up comfortably as opposed to be having to wear 2 as they didn’t do up.

The second being that I fit in a standard wheelchair and didn’t need a Bariatric wheelchair to take me to radiology today.

So that’s me done for today. I’m normally a happy shiny positive person but today it just can’t be done. I honestly just want to curl up in a ball crying and sleep until this is all over!

I am so very overwhelmed with the amount of love support concern and well wishes that I have been receiving over the last few days, it really does help knowing I have so many people who care about me!! So I am cheers you all with my dinner of chips………ice chips that is 😫