WHMP: 1 August 2017

So I have shared the update earlier today that I am out of hospital. Jamie picked me up and I was at the Chemist by 10am picking up my scripts.

On my way out of the hospital Lilian’s rooms called and let me know I need to be at pre-admission at 9am on Thursday but admission clinic will confirm tomorrow 100%.

It’s been a long and draining day even though I haven’t done a damn thing all day. I know I felt flat at the hospital and that was even while I was just laying in the bed and the most strenuous thing I did was take about 8 steps to the toilet and back but now I’m at home it’s actually realised how crappy I do feel.

Driving home I felt like Jamie was driving like a rally car driver and feeling car sick and queasy every corner her turned and felt like my entire insides were relocating every speed bump he drove over. Walking around the chemist and even just the house I felt really dizzy and unsteady of my feet often having wobbly leg moment where I had to grab onto something or someone to ground myself. My head hurts, I’m irritable, I’m tired and even the light in the house seem like they have turned into fluros and are irritating my eyes and head!

We didn’t tell the little guy I was coming home just in case things changed and he was very excited he came home from school to find mummy on the couch and we just quietly sat there having snuggles for about 20 minutes.

Throughout the day I had 3 acute pain episodes after getting home from hospital. One of them was after Lachlan for home from school and because I didn’t want him to witness and I couldn’t physically move when it hit, I simply grabbed the blanket I had on my lap and hid underneath it and was as quiet as I possibly could be. Jamie knew what was going on and tried to distract Lachlan as much as possible from what I was doing until it passed.

Lachlan had aqua therapy this afternoon and quite honestly I could have happily given it a miss and stayed home but there wasn’t a brass razoo chance of him going anywhere without me. It was so hot humid and stuffy in there it was a struggle.

Came home and it was dinner time and I am convinced that Percy has shrunk as I could only eat 1/4 cup of the slow cooker where as pre-whatever is going on I would have been able to eat about 3/4 cup.

The over excitement of my coming home must have been too much for a little person to handle and has resulted in him being an absolute fire cracker tonight and oh my goodness he is just so damn loud, I’m struggling to do any type of active parenting and I just want to curl up in a ball in a dark quiet room and hide from the world….like a mushroom!

I am so very grateful that Jamie has been such an amazing partner and support to me and for stepping up and being an amazing dad over the last week.