WHMP: 5 August 2017

Today I ventured out of the house for the first time in way too long, nothing exciting just to the supermarket but even that absolutely took it out of me. The loud noises, the walking around, the bright lights but I did it, it’s got to be done, I need to be socialised and get amongst it and participate in life so I can get myself out of this slump. When I came home I was stuffed and had a nap for 1 and half hours.

We had lunch at the food court which was a time for reflection of food portions. Pre-sleeve I would have easily eaten 12-15 dumplings no questions asked. Before whatever if happening now started I could have eaten 3-4 dumpling this size as they were quite small. Percy has definitely shrunk as well as I couldn’t even finish 2 of them. And they weren’t even that nice, my homemade ones are better than that! I’m looking forward to my dumpling press being delivered this week to give them a crack so I can make some more, otherwise I will just have to make some more and fold them myself.  BBQ pork dumplings I’m thinking, using the filling I would normally have is a steamed bun.

Major pain episodes wise, I had overnight and one tonight,  which I have worked out both occurred about 4 hours after I had a meal. I’m almost too scared to eat as I they seem to be a trigger the episodes.

The constant pain has continued to be there today and isn’t easing up at all and if anything it was slightly worse today.

Has there been movement? The tablets have resulted in some bowel actions but not really anything substantial. Fluid have been hard today as I am really struggling to fit anymore in.

Where is my head at? Same as yesterday but I am determined to beat whatever is going on and move past this speed bump so I can get back on track to where I want to be.

Took a picture the little guy and me this afternoon and it was bit scary to see the deep dark circles and my receding eyes, my eyes are always the biggest big away of when I’m feeling off. I’m feeling as trashbag as I am looking!

Lochie wanted fruit salad for dessert tonight and I thought I’d give it a try for me to have some freshness too, except I added some protein into my strawberry. I know that my protein levels are terrible at the moment so I have had to resort to sneaking protein in whenever and wherever I possibly can!