WHMP: 22 September 2017

Another day another new outfit. This time it really is the last new dress for a while…..or until my next Zulily order arrives hahaha but will be a while before I get into them as I bought 2 sizes smaller.

A lot of compliments again on my new dress and even more about my hair. I am much happier with my hair today when it’s not blowdried all pushed backwards so I look like I am wearing a hair helmet lol.

After work tonight we went out for dinner to celebrate my nieces 4th birthday party. My sisters mother and father in law were there and I have known them for nearly 10 years. Even though Julie has been following the pictures on my Facebook when I arrived and went over and gave the kids a cuddle she was wondering who was talking to the kids as she didn’t recognise me at all. I haven’t seen her in person in about 6 months since my nephews birthday party. They both commented on how amazing I am looking and how well I am doing.

It’s so bizarre to think that people don’t actually recognise me.

Normally when we go out, it’s no big deal and I don’t have any problems finding something suitable to order. Tonight wasn’t one of those nights. We went to the house of schnitzel so everything in the menu was essentially deep fried or carb overloaded. I ended up ordering a side plate of the veggie and salad bar, was the best option that didn’t seem like a huge waste of money, the only down fall is that obviously it wasn’t great for my protein levels.

But in all honesty, I’m not too bothered about nutrition, wasting money and all those other things that I could get upset about. I still have to live my life and integrate in the social scene of “normal” eaters. How on earth can I be upset about being happy and comfortable in a public setting and not feeling anxiety and discomfort about being judged in public and being judged for everything I eat and drink. My sleeve plays a big part of my life yes BUT it doesn’t define my life. I do!

My sister at dinner tonight said when she gets back from holidays in October she is going to come to the gym with me one Saturday morning to do a circuit together. That will be very interesting for me as she is a retired state and thunderbirds netball player…..I hope I survive or don’t embarrass myself!