WHMP: 28 November 2017

Intended to go for my morning walk/jog again this morning but apparently my body had different ideas turning off my alarm when it went off and going straight back to sleep without even realising! Oh well I guess today is going to be my rest day instead of tomorrow!

So as I have been coming up to my appointments my insecurities and displeasures have been doing overtime!

Don’t get me wrong I am beyond grateful of the opportunity I have been given to reclaim me life and so very proud of how far I have already come. I know I’m a work in progress and that I will achieve my goals that I have set for myself but I still really struggle when I look at myself in the mirror.

It’s really quite bizarre…photos I can handle

But there is something about the mirror that is so damn exposing and terrifying!

One thing that I really am not at all happy with no matter how much weight I have lost and realistically no matter how much weight I will lose is my damn belly bulge!! Yes it has considerably shrunk but it’s still there which really limits the selection of silhouettes of clothes I can wear. I can only wear pencil skirts like I did today when it’s a long line tunic style top to cover that bulge.

The worst part is no matter how much I lose it will always be there as a lot of that is excess skin which I can’t do anything about until it gets chopped off even losing some more kgs.

So this is Bertha my bulge – I hate Bertha!!

And to the lady who I was talking to in the kitchen today who I never spoken to before…..

No, I haven’t had fillers in my lips

Yes, they do look larger than you used to

Yes, I’m sure I haven’t had fillers or Botox….I’ve just lost the fat that used to surround them to make my lips look bigger!!