Weigh in Wednesday is back again!

This week – 2kg

Since surgery – 38kg

Total – 56.9kg

Only 900g of the 2kg loss gets added to the kitty after my 1.1kg gain last week. I’m pleasantly surprised!

Today has quite frankly been brutal. It was my 6th consecutive night of a non-survivable amount of broken sleep. I was cranky, tired, exhausted, bumbling jabbering fool!  Not at all sleeve related but life related. I did however survive my way though the day which 6-8 months ago quite simply I just wouldn’t have coped.

On my way home from work I did a spot of clearance retail therapy getting some track pants for $6. I bought one size too small. THEY FIT!!!! They are like a second skin but they bloody well fit!

Mum’s coming to help tonight so hoping for a decent night’s sleep!

Day 29, 29/50 – 109.6km

I had my second PT session with Steve.  I did well (even if I do say so myself).  I have a lot more strength than I thought and who knew I actually had a core with muscles that worked?

I didn’t before but boy oh boy are they screaming at me now, as is my bum!  Pretty sure throughout the session I smashed out about 100 pole squats, never thought I could do that either.  I certainly have a lot more grit and determination that I give myself credit for.

The sadly concludes my introduction package and at this stage with my current life/mum/work commitments both time wise and financially.  I am so very disappointed as Steve is so incredible, supportive, understanding and I know he would  push me to kick some serious goals.   BUT it is what it is.  While I wish I had the ability and capacity to commit it just isn’t feasible, I will keep moving and doing what I can when I can as in all honesty this is a hell of a lot more than I was going 6 months ago.

The rest of my day was a tired blur as the little guy had another bad night I got a massive 4 hours sleep!  I went through the motions of my busy schedule, surprisingly without too many raging aches.  Tomorrow might be a different story.

Took the little guy to his regular aqua therapy session this afternoon and as we were messing around in the change rooms afterwards and I was giving him a piggy back and we were giggling in the mirror I had an OH CRAP moment.  I have lost just under the equivalent to not 1 but 2 Lachlan’s!!! That is just insane.

Feeling tired and flat – lack of sleep, busy day and low calories is calling for an early night! On the plus side I have been a good girl with my fluids 🙂

Day 28 – 4.8km, 28/50 – 107.8km

Got to debut the new hairdo at work today. Everyone loved it so I guess I must be doing a half decent job at styling it.

Also saw one of my clinical leads today who is so extremely supportive and always compliments me telling me I’m looking a bit skinnier every time I see him. He’s heading off in 6 weeks annual leave so I wonder if he will notice any big differences once he has returned.

Work is incredibly stressful at the moment with some crazy busy deadlines! Pre-surgery I would have resorted to food to deal with my stress. Today I didn’t even cave at all and I didn’t have any of the delicious looking macarons floating around the office.

I’m fact the complete opposite has happened and I wasn’t even remotely hungry which resulted in both poor fluid and nutrition today. 

Oopsy! Tomorrow is a new day.

Day 27 – 2.1km, 27/50 – 103km

Today it is 5 months since I had my surgery. I am completely gobsmacked with how quickly this time has gone by! 

5 months since Percy came into my life and change my world.

So I did my monthly measurements today and I continue to drop centimetres over my 6 measure points showing that the kilogram figure is only measure of my success and achievements!
I have lost an astonishing 117cm since surgery!

Holy crap! That I’d longer than Lachlan is in height!

Jamie was a little bit “precious” (aka hungover) today after out night out last night. So he had KFC for lunch. This has always been my kypronite and I’ve always been a sucker for KFC. So despite the boys having a smorgasbords of chicken not one little piece passed through my lips!

I didn’t enjoy the smell. I didn’t enjoy seeing the greasy packaging or the greasy feel as I put it on Lachlan’s plate. I didn’t feel like I was missing out.

Percy remains supreme and instead I had homemade dim sim (of course with a sneaky dose of protein powder).

This week has been hard with the little guy being sick, so next week I am determined to be more forceful in making myself go for more walks or just to move more. My body misses it, and I NEVER thought I would say that!

Day 26 – 4.4km, 26/50 – 100.9km

My target was 100km in 50 days……I’m now aiming for 200km



Tonight Jamie and I had our first date night since before I started Opti back in October last year. 

I wore my first goal outfit being a dress I bought from City Chic. 

I had serious anxiety getting ready even though I ended up in my goal outfit.  Everything I wore I was so awkward and uncomfortable in and nothing seemed or felt right.

I am really looking forward to my appointment with my surgeon’s programs life coach toduscuss some of these issues!

Day 25 – 2.5km, 25/50 – 96.5km

I have two words to describe today…..

MUM LIFE!!

My day started at 5am being coated in copious amounts of vomit. Not the ideal way to start the day.  Needless to say the warrior mum came out and went into nurture mode for my poorly little cub.

How do I know that’s he’s not well? He actually asked to eat vegetables which is great, but it meant I had to share my portioned out lunch 🤣😂

Fluids and stress levels are crap. Required a afternoon nap to get through the day thanks to a raging headache.

I saw a quote on Facebook today that was a perfect day for me to see it……

Day 24 – 1.8km, 24/50 – 94km

Most people on this crazy weight loss journey at some stage take the right of passage of a make over of some sort. Today was that day…..

Today I had a very rare ‘me’ day and a complete relax day including having the big chop!

I went to the salon with a completely blank canvass and no ideas or expectations and gave Luke feee reign to do whatever he wanted as long as it was within my 3 rules:

1. It’s low maintenance and easy to style
2. I can still put it in a pony tail
3. I don’t look like an arsepie!!!

Well I am so over the moon with the outcome. It’s fresh, healthy and a stylist cut. Now to see if I can mimmick the styling tomorrow morning!

My exercise has been very poor today and I don’t give a rats cracker. Today was all about finding and enhancing the new and improved Holly. Now I just need to learn to take time out and me time more often!

Day 23 – 1.7km, 23/50 – 92.2km

Weigh in Wednesday is here again.

This week the inevitable happened. I have had my first ever gain!

I knew it was going to happen one day and I have been preparing myself for it.

I can honestly say I’m 100% OK with it and if anything I almost feel a weird sense of relief that I have finally got my first gain out of the way!

I also know my last week hasn’t been nutritionally as good as some of my previous weeks making some still healthy but more carby choices and with Lochie’s worsening sleep I have been having and extra coffee every day and having an extra snack in the middle of the night during Party-time.

Regroup, refocus and back on track for a bigger and better next week.

I also remind myself that weight is only one measure of success and to stay on focused on the bigger picture 

Day 22 – 2.7km, 22/50- 90.5km

Today I firmly stepped outside my comfort zone.  Today I met the amazing Steve from Stronger Mind and Body Training.  I have signed up to two complimentary personal training session and a 10 day gym membership pass.  i got such a happy positive and motivating vibe from Steve and I feel that he really would be a great motivator and aide in my journey.

We had a chat about my goals, ambitions and motivators and then went through a 20 minute circuit.  I have two words…..SQUATS and PAIN!!!

Having said that for my first ever session in the gym I think I did pretty good.  I have booked in and I’m excited for next weeks session.

I then had a quick turn around to get home, have a shower then get to a work meeting at the airport.  it wasn’t until half way there that I realised I actually hadn’t had anything to eat since breakfast and I hadn’t even considered lunch in my hurry to get there so instead of reorting to previous shitty but easy food options of take away I very quickly stopped at Woolworths and bought a packet of the new Tip Top Thins bread, a slice of cheese, some turkey, a handful of baby spinach and some aioli.  Quickly I made a sandwich to have on the go.

I am proud of myself for making this decision when I quite easily could have made different poor choices.  While I couldn’t finish it I am not so proud of myself that I ate as quickly as I did and it ended up getting stuck and I felt a bit yuck afterwards.

Moral of the story and lesson learnt that I need to be more organised with my food and I must must must eat a hell of a lot slower even when I’m in hurry.

Tonight in my motivated state I decided to sit down and so the numbers and calculations for if I was to sign up for the PT and the gym on an ongoing basis and much to my disappointment financially it just isn’t a viable option at all.

Not only that but to have the gym membership with my crazy schedule I would struggle to get to the gym more than once a week for my PT session so it really isn’t the best value for money.  So while I am frustrated that once again life gets in the way of having the capacity to do what I want and need at the required level of intensity.

Regardless of that I will keep doing as much as I can with the lifestyle I have, I love my life and I love my boys so first and forth most will always be my first priority.

Day 21 – 2.5km, 21/50 – 87.8km

Not sure what is going on with me today, I feel a bit flat and cranky.

My fluids have been a bit low and my calories are a bit off compared to my normal so I’m not sure if that’s why? My workload and stress levels are pretty high so again I’m not sure if it’s that?

I managed to do about 18 flights of stairs when I was feeling flat this afternoon but not sure if it made things better or worse.

Early night after a cup of tea and I will regroup and start over again tomorrow!

Day 20 – 2.6km, 20/50 – 85.3km