30 July, 2017
WHMP: 30 July 2017
There is no news flash today. I am still none the wiser of what is going on with my body and these awful pains.
I do however know that there are wheels in motion for the next round of diagnostics. Tomorrow I will have a swallow test and tomorrow I will be booked for an endoscopy which will more than likely be scheduled for Wednesday unless in the two days prior there is a cancellation or an opening on the trauma theatre list. So while my heart and head is at home I am so very sad that I have to admit to myself I’m not looking at heading there anytime soon.
I’m sad, I’m tired, I’m over it, I’m drained, I’m exhausted, I’m confused, I’m scared and I’m flat. I’ve lost my positive sparkle and happy outlook and I just want to curl up in a ball and hide under my hospital blanket until everything is back on track.
I did a face off to try and cheer me up and help me keep perspective, not sure it worked but here it is…..