11 October, 2017
WHMP: 11 October 2017
Weigh in Wednesday.
This week I was expecting a gain after my only real exercise in the last week being a small gym session on Saturday and the ridiculous playground on Sunday. I also know that my food choices in the last week have not been as wise as they should be and I have been recklessly snacking for the sake of it! And the scales delivered!
I was so disappointed in myself when they told me that I had gain 500g. Not disappointed in the loss as I know this is a journey and it ebbs and flows and that stalls and small gains will happen along the way. But disappointed in myself that I have let myself down over the last week.
I went to put in the weight into my monitor my weigh app to discover I actually stuffed up my starting weight and was 1kg heavier than I thought so I in fact lost 500g this week.
This week – 0.5kg
Since surgery – 57.7kg
Total – 76.6kg
I decided that I needed to brighten up my morning and liven up my day so I went bright and bold and wearing another kindly re-homed Calvin Klein dress to rave reviews at work today.
I did surprise myself at work today. I took a couple of slabs of cake out of the freezer in for the team to share. I had the 2 delicious slabs of cake sitting on the table directly behind me all day and I can honestly say I wasn’t tempted at all. So I am proud of myself for that decision and standing strong.
However, I have been thinking about it all day and I’m using the shock morning and disappointment in myself to drive some changes. I need to stop check and regroup, it’s pouch reset time!! I just can’t ever bring myself to do Opti-phase again after 10 weeks of doing shakes so I have decided I am going to do 5 days each of fluids, purees and finish of with softs, I am going to start on Sunday to give myself some time to plan and also because we already have dinner reservations for Saturday night. Not sure how much value for money I am going to get out of an all you can eat Indian buffet hahahaha but it will be a good night out with Jamie and our friends.
Wednesday nights I can’t go to the gym anymore as Jamie has social lawn bowls, however it was cancelled tonight because of the rain. I wasn’t going to go the gym but after Jamie and Lachlan both told me to go to the gym off I went. So I geared up in my new compression tights and off I went.
It actually felt great wearing the compression wear as it pulled my excess skin in tight and it honestly felt magical feeling what thighs should be like when exercising instead of my normal skin issues. And it even felt somewhat like I had a developing thigh gap.
It was a rollercoaster day but I’m refocused and I’m planning to get myself back on track and refocused.