17 May, 2018
WHMP: 17 May 2018
Today has been a good day. Actually strike that…..today has been a GREAT day!!
I don’t know what has happened but something has happened overnight and I have had this mysterious mental switch go off in my head.
My day started off like any other Thursday morning, super early morning alarm to get to the gym to do a bit of a warm up the body and get the blood flowing before my PT session. This morning I did 15 minutes on the treadmill and while I was walking on the treadmill I had a couple of things hit me. The first was the reflection of the window wall on the outside dark sky of myself, I have a WTF moment looking at the reflection of my legs feeling those legs shouldn’t actually belong on my body.
The second thing was my reflecting on how far my fitness has come since I first joined the gym. When i first started at the gym I wouldn’t walk more than 10 minutes on the treadmill on a 0 incline at a speed of 4.2 kmph, in all honesty that is all that I could handle. Today in the 15 minutes I was on the treadmill I was walking at the speed of 6.00 kmph and started at an incline of 3.0 working my way up to 6.0……which 6.0 incline isn’t great as I regularly walk at 20.0 incline for short stints, I do not usually do any incline walking above 5.5 kmph. The fact that I have the fitness and determination to walk at this speed and incline is a total feather in my cap.
Once I had finished on the treadmill I then started my PT session and as always the delightful Anita decided to push me a little bit more and I think she has discovered my competitiveness that is starting to come through and in the last set on the rower doing 20 calories she wanted me to push the time to beat the previous time. The first 20 calories was 1:43, followed up by 1:34 and then finishing up at 1:21…wow I didn’t know that I had that within me.
At the conclusion of my PT session I had burnt a pretty astonishing 672 calories in 45 minutes. Now I gotta be happy with that. As I was looking down to take a photo of my Fitbit calories I had my second WTF moment of the day when I saw my legs once again. Yes yes, I know i am having total self-obsessed leg admiration and I don’t care. While I can see the outer side of my thunder thigh that is predominately excess skin…..for a change today I had the capacity to look past the flaws. I saw legs that from the knees down look AWESOME. They look like the legs of a fit, strong and NORMAL person. And I saw that every elusive thigh gap. This morning I think my legs look on point and I am damn proud of how my leggies are looking – the lymphedema aka tree trunk legs of my past are exactly that. I think of the past!
As I got home and got ready for work still on a high from my double WTF’s of the morning I had my third, fourth and fifth WTF of the day.
WTF number three……I fit into a size small, that is right – a SIZE SMALL dress from City Chic and not only was it a size small dress it was a completely different style to what I am used to and steering away from the standard skater or empire cut dress I normally wear, this was a more straight lined tunic. In the past this style of dress has looking hideous on my drawing attention to my “thick” mid section. Not anymore!
WTF number four….I fit into a pair of Extra-Tall 120 denier tights, and these are just normal person tights not plus size or not curvy range tight. I am easily fitting into a standard right pair of tights with no need to superman them. Superman’ing being putting another pair of knickers over the top of my tights to keep them up into place. Previously, even in plus sized tights I would have to Superman them otherwise within 30 minutes the crotch of the tights would be down around me knees as they were just too damn small.
The fifth WTF is probably the most exciting WTF of all. Once I was completely ready for work I looked in the mirror and wait for it……….
I LIKED WHAT I SAW!!!!
For the first time in my entire adult life I looked back at a reflection that didn’t look obese, that didn’t look large, that didn’t look offensive. I in fact sent a few messages to people who i know would get it saying for the first time in my life I feel thinner than I can ever remember feeling. AND it’s a feeling I really like.
WTF number five…..I felt good about myself and I looked in the mirror and I saw nothing but positives within myself and so amazing proud of the person that I am becoming.
And just to top if off nicely, I had to go and get my eyes tested this morning being severely overdue with some blurred vision and headaches lately which I was in the waiting area, I can also celebrate WTF number six!! I no longer need to stand in a waiting room because I don’t physically fit into the standard waiting room bucket chairs. Today not only did I fit, I even had room to spare either side.
Today is a WTF kind of day, and I kind of like it!!